Coming Soon - What I have Learned

I am attempting to put together my thoughts on the lessons that I have been taught over the past two years and even beyond. I am going to post some of the things that God has taught me during this very difficult time in hopes that someone, somewhere may benefit from those lessons. So, stay tuned for the real truth, some of which is pretty and some of which is not so pretty.

When you gotta go, you gotta go!

I ran across the picture and it just cracks me up. What a great and creative angle. It really sums up how I feel right now. I have been somewhat preoccupied yesterday and last night after reading a thread of the Bethany Board about attachment. I keep going over and over in my mind, what if I don't get it right, what if I miss something, what if Jadyn has attachment issues that I don't recognize, and every other question rolling around in my head. I guess you can say that I feel like I'm "freaking out" on the inside. For those that know me well, you know that I wouldn't show it on the outside. Is this normal to feel this way coming down to the wire? I have waited so long for this and I just don't want to mess it up. I read of severe attachment issues and I read peoples blogs that say their issues are very minimal. I think that it is safe to say that all instutionalized children have suffered a break in the attachment cycle and will have some issues and I recognize and believe this, but I can't help but be worried about missing something. Maybe I just need reassurance, maybe I just need encouragement, maybe I just need to use THAT bathroom at the Great Wall!

Anyone for Sushi?

For those of you that know me well, you know once I have something in my mind there is no stopping me. I will drive 500 miles just to find one thing. Well, one of my most recent missions has been the Great Sushi Set Search of 06! I saw this "Melissa and Doug" wooden sushi set on line and felt in my heart that Jadyn "must" have one. It was way too much on line so I began my hunt. I had a few shops that I knew that sold Melissa and Doug toys but I kept coming up empty handed. Just when I had resolved that I was going to "have" to pay that ridiculous price, I found it at the Peanut Gallery in Murfreesboro. Woo Hoo! It is so cute. The sushi rolls velcro together so you can put the together and then "cut" them apart to serve. The chopsticks have velcro on the ends of them so you can easily pick the "sushi" up. It also has a bowl of soy sauce, wasabi and ginger slices. It really is too cute for words. Guess you can tell that it don't take much to excite me these days.

Fun with Addie!

Just before Christmas, we got the priviledge of keeping Addie Mei for Dick and Leslie. She was a blast. I told Pat that we must look ridiculous as we sat in chairs (all three of us, Pat, Zac and myself) just watching her eat in her (actually Jadyn's) highchair. Can you imagine? Oh well, here are a few pictures from the night that I am just now blogging. What a great time we had. It was a true joy and she loves egg nog. I don't think that they served it back at "the home" :)

A Little Bummed!

Well, the new cut-off date is 9/27/05. I really had hoped for the rest of the month, or at least through the 29th of September, but no go. I am not at all surprised, but I guess a little disappointed. This means that we will probably not get our referral until sometime in February or even into the first or March. I don't look for the next cut-off to go much into October. Even though there is more days in this batch, this is still considerably less LID's that they have previously been processing. I am still searching for the lesson that God is teaching me!!!!!

What do I Know?

Nothing, absolutely nothing at this point. I am still diligently praying that 9/29 is included in this batch that is due to hit the states today. We need it to and we need it to BAD!!! Keep on praying. This is HUGE for us. There are conflicting rumors, but it's not looking too good right now.

Happy New Year!

Yes, I know that I'm a day late, that is usually how it works for me. But, here's hoping we hear some wonderful referral news today. There is a European agency that has already confirmed that their 9/27/05 people are in. We REALLY NEED for this batch to go through the end of September. Get busy praying! More later as the excitement unfolds! Just a thought, what if we get a call today and our LID has been changed? Stranger things have happened you know! :)